“…a unique spiritual position where human beings hate to be but where the biblical God is always leading them. It is when you have left the tried and true, but have not yet been able to replace it with anything else. It is when you are finally out of the way. It is when you are between your old comfort zone and any possible new answer. If you are not trained in how to hold anxiety, how to live with ambiguity, how to entrust and wait, you will run…anything to flee this terrible cloud of unknowing.”
– Richard Rohr
I am in the in-between space- having left behind my life in Calgary, and not yet really started this chapter here in Waterloo. I am here to do my MFA, and have come early to get settled in, so that the inevitable business of September will hopefully not be too much of a shock. There was a minor crisis when my living arrangement fell through, but now I have a room rented in a place which I think may actually be a pretty good fit (fingers crossed), possibly a blessing in disguise. I don’t move in there until month’s end, however, just before classes start, so for now, I’m in the liminal space. The in-between.
I’m trying to relax, slow down, explore the new city (cities, actually, Kitchener AND Waterloo), rest and calm down. I’ve been doing okay with that, I think, although it’s not easy. If you know me at all, you know that I usually have a few different things on the go at any point in time, so this kind of unstructured time is a little tough for me to wrap my head around. I’m anxious and nervous, and have a million things I need to do and get, hardly any of which I can or should do before my funding comes in or I move into the place I’ll actually be staying at. Such as getting a few pieces of furniture, a dresser, for instance, or a new computer, which I am really starting to need. (This one is starting to pull some serious attitude.)
So, I’ve been hanging out in the studio, getting settled in there, starting to make some little things and write lists of things I think I’ll need. I’ve also been walking around quite a bit, checking out Uptown Waterloo, as well as some other fun things, such as the Kitchener-Waterloo Art Gallery (KWAG), and the Canadian Clay and Glass Gallery.