I made one!

So I downloaded a program that allows me to make SIRDs…. here’s the first sample one I made.  Can you see what the image is?

It’s actually a little complicated to get the right balance, it seems, but I’m playing

I made one!

So I downloaded a program that allows me to make SIRDs…. here’s the first sample one I made.  Can you see what the image is?

It’s actually a little complicated to get the right balance, it seems, but I’m playing

The Cos/ SIRDs

This is an SIRD image we generated online. Unfortunately, the end of the word is cut off.

Last night, we went for an adventure and went out in Blairmore.  We went to The Cos (The Cosmopolitan) in downtown Blairmore.  The girls (Latifa and her sister, who is currently visiting) had never really been to a small town bar, and I think it was an interesting experience for them.  For me, it was a bit of a trip down Nostalgia Lane.  I gre up in a little town, and while the bar was not the same bar, it definitely had the same vibes and patterns, and felt like home.  Lol.  I was thinking a lot about my high school friends, and that point in my life.

Anyway, I must admit that I haven’t been feeling too motivated lately.  While we have been playing with a few things, I’ve been feeling a little stuck.  I’ve been playing with a little of the video I’ve been collecting, and, honestly, avoiding the 3d.  But I have been doing a bit of research, and I think maybe today I’ll play with an open source program I got, Blender (which is a “3D content creation suite”), which hopefully I can use to see if I can use it to develop a couple of SIRDs, (Single Image Random Dot Stereograms) we’ve been wanting to create (like a Magic Eye).

And here’s a link to a moving SIRD! Exciting!

The Cos/ SIRDs

This is an SIRD image we generated online. Unfortunately, the end of the word is cut off.

Last night, we went for an adventure and went out in Blairmore.  We went to The Cos (The Cosmopolitan) in downtown Blairmore.  The girls (Latifa and her sister, who is currently visiting) had never really been to a small town bar, and I think it was an interesting experience for them.  For me, it was a bit of a trip down Nostalgia Lane.  I gre up in a little town, and while the bar was not the same bar, it definitely had the same vibes and patterns, and felt like home.  Lol.  I was thinking a lot about my high school friends, and that point in my life.

Anyway, I must admit that I haven’t been feeling too motivated lately.  While we have been playing with a few things, I’ve been feeling a little stuck.  I’ve been playing with a little of the video I’ve been collecting, and, honestly, avoiding the 3d.  But I have been doing a bit of research, and I think maybe today I’ll play with an open source program I got, Blender (which is a “3D content creation suite”), which hopefully I can use to see if I can use it to develop a couple of SIRDs, (Single Image Random Dot Stereograms) we’ve been wanting to create (like a Magic Eye).

And here’s a link to a moving SIRD! Exciting!

Strange Dreams and Unearthly Delights

So, the night before yesterday I had an interesting dream. I was pregnant, and my water broke. “Oh no,” I thought, “the baby will born premature.” I called out to my mother. I was terrified of the pain. Then I realized, “I know my body well, I know how to feel it. I only need to embrace the pain, to invert the repulsion.” And so I did.

I feel like this dream is a good metaphor for my creative process out here. Sometimes I feel plugged, unable to deliver.

On the other hand, I have started drawing in the way that you automatic write. I guess it is a strange story. Perhaps you wont believe me, but that doesn’t really change anything does it.
So almost 2 years ago Kiki and I were playing ouija board. A strange force began to move our homemade pointer in aggressive and  highly sexualized ways. Our meeting was cut short as I had to catch the train home. I told the being that it should come home with me as I needed some friends. We had a nice time together.
In the morning on the way to school, I don’t know why, I decided to try automatic writing. It worked! The being began to write all kinds of things, especially about my being a young neive woman. Actually it was a bit much. I thought I had stumbled on some portal to another possibly wiser dimension.
I took the affair to a friend of mine, this guy who is into spirits and forces and things. The automatic writing was very fast, it kept saying similar sorts of things, and that it didn’t like men, poor Raphael. Anyhow, he told me it was an evil spirit.
As time went on I attempted drawing with the force, but it always drew crude things, and I got tired of the illegible mess. I also realized that my mind tainted the process, that actually things I thought manifested in words, and I could easily influence the outcome. I could tell my hand to move to the left. Haha, I know that seems normal, but it doesn’t feel normal. It feels like your hand is being pulled, you just let it happen, you don’t actively do it.
I later came to wonder if the whole thing was just myself. I still ask myself the same question. Since at the time I wanted an external prophesizing force to guide the confusion and uncertainty of my existence, I soon grew tired of the phenomenon and stopped entirely. Now a long time has passed. I attempted drawing one more time, maybe 8 months ago, it was a similar illegable thing.
Two nights ago, since I am terrified of the strange forces living in my cottage, I thought I would try to make communion and call upon the spirits. I tried automatic writing again:
Me : Is anyone there.
Us: You
Me: Why did the lights go out?
Us: Because.
Me: Are there others here?
Us: No.
Me: Is there energy here from before?
Us: Yes
Me: Should I be afraid?
Us: No.
Me: What should I do with my life?
Us: You are a young human, you are a young human, you are a young human  . . .
This line of questioning continued until we drew an ecstatic happy face:

So I decided to cautiously try serious drawing again, as we wanted to draw very much. Haha, that sounds so creepy.
Actually I am finding the process to be unexpectedly successful and of much higher quality than hoped. In addition it feels incredibly wonderful to do and feel without my thoughts bothering me and my mind questioning too much.
Perhaps what is different from before is that I know this is as much me as anything else, I am able to guide and direct what I want, and it manifests in completely unanticipated ways.
I guess it could be just my body creating, the whole of my being without some of the top heavy brain action.
Maybe I am drawing on the forces of eternal creation.
Are we not all made of this matter anyway?
Are we not all so deeply connected that much of the isolation we claim is an illusion?
I don’t have any particular answers to these questions, but like my dream suggested, if you trust and feel things instead of analyzing all the time, it actually is a lot easier.

much love,
Latifa

Big Shoes

I’m realizing there’s big shoes to fill, in participating in the Gushul Residency.  And also an interesting tie to some of my role models/some other fibre artists.

Today we went out for coffee/lunch with Kristin Ivey, who did the Residency in 2008 (when I say “Residency,” I mean the residency as sponsored by Trap/Door in specific).  It was really nice to meet Kristin, as I had come across her work when researching the Trap/Door/Gushul Residency.  She actually lives in Coleman, now, and when we went to the Bellevue Coal Mine the other day, the woman at the front desk was telling us about Kristin and her work.  Kristin works mainly in soft sculpture.

Kristin mentioned some other artists I know (or have heard of) who have done the residency as well.  For example, Wednesday Lupypciw.  I wasn’t aware that Wednesday had participated in the Gushul Residency.  And only fairly recently that she is a Fibre grad from ACAD.  Her work has been in some impressive shows, including She Will Always Be Younger Than Us, curated by Allyson Mitchell.

And then there’s Shanell Papp, who I haven’t met, but who seems to run in the same circles as I do.  It’s always interesting when a reputation preceeds someone.  Hopefully I’ll actually be able to meet Shanell in Jaunary, when we are both showing work in Caterina Pizanias’ New Alberta Contemporaries Exhibition.  Shanell’s work has a sense of humour about our own mortality, while drawing attention to process, pattern and structure.

Big shoes.

Big Shoes

I’m realizing there’s big shoes to fill, in participating in the Gushul Residency.  And also an interesting tie to some of my role models/some other fibre artists.

Today we went out for coffee/lunch with Kristin Ivey, who did the Residency in 2008 (when I say “Residency,” I mean the residency as sponsored by Trap/Door in specific).  It was really nice to meet Kristin, as I had come across her work when researching the Trap/Door/Gushul Residency.  She actually lives in Coleman, now, and when we went to the Bellevue Coal Mine the other day, the woman at the front desk was telling us about Kristin and her work.  Kristin works mainly in soft sculpture.

Kristin mentioned some other artists I know (or have heard of) who have done the residency as well.  For example, Wednesday Lupypciw.  I wasn’t aware that Wednesday had participated in the Gushul Residency.  And only fairly recently that she is a Fibre grad from ACAD.  Her work has been in some impressive shows, including She Will Always Be Younger Than Us, curated by Allyson Mitchell.

And then there’s Shanell Papp, who I haven’t met, but who seems to run in the same circles as I do.  It’s always interesting when a reputation preceeds someone.  Hopefully I’ll actually be able to meet Shanell in Jaunary, when we are both showing work in Caterina Pizanias’ New Alberta Contemporaries Exhibition.  Shanell’s work has a sense of humour about our own mortality, while drawing attention to process, pattern and structure.

Big shoes.

Stereoscopic vs. Anaglyphic

 

This is an example of a sample I have been working on, which we will get printed to see how it works (hopefully).

So, if you’ve been “perceptive,” you may have noticed that Latifa and I are working with a theme of “Perception.”  We’ve been doing a lot of research on Stereoscopic and Anaglyphic images.

For example, stereoscopic images are when each eye is presented with a slightly different image, and the brain puts the two together, tricking you into thinking you are actually seeing 3D.  I’m sure you’re familiar with these- We remember the Magic Eye posters on the walls of elementary school classrooms.

I wonder, is this Charlie?

Here’s a couple of links to see what I mean.

How to Make Drawings or Photographs in Stereoscopic Pairs

Let’s Build a Steroscope

Anaglyphic images are images where two differently colored images are superimposed on top of each other.  This is an example of one I made yesterday…. You will need 3D glasses to view these properly…

Wikipedia: Anaglyph Images

Anaglyphs: Flickr Gallery

Making Anaglyph Images

Here’s another 3D image that I made…. If you look at it cross eyed, you’ll see that the Z’s are in the foreground, and the X’s are in the background.  This has to do with the spacing between things.

We’ve also discovered a generator…!

Stereoscopic vs. Anaglyphic

 

This is an example of a sample I have been working on, which we will get printed to see how it works (hopefully).

So, if you’ve been “perceptive,” you may have noticed that Latifa and I are working with a theme of “Perception.”  We’ve been doing a lot of research on Stereoscopic and Anaglyphic images.

For example, stereoscopic images are when each eye is presented with a slightly different image, and the brain puts the two together, tricking you into thinking you are actually seeing 3D.  I’m sure you’re familiar with these- We remember the Magic Eye posters on the walls of elementary school classrooms.

I wonder, is this Charlie?

Here’s a couple of links to see what I mean.

How to Make Drawings or Photographs in Stereoscopic Pairs

Let’s Build a Steroscope

Anaglyphic images are images where two differently colored images are superimposed on top of each other.  This is an example of one I made yesterday…. You will need 3D glasses to view these properly…

Wikipedia: Anaglyph Images

Anaglyphs: Flickr Gallery

Making Anaglyph Images

Here’s another 3D image that I made…. If you look at it cross eyed, you’ll see that the Z’s are in the foreground, and the X’s are in the background.  This has to do with the spacing between things.

We’ve also discovered a generator…!

Re: Lundbreck Falls

haha, it is funny to watch myself running back and forth.

Yeah, it was a really beautiful day. The weather was amazing. Do you not agree that September is the new August?

It was great to have my family up. They are so funny and curious. I don’t know how I forget that when I am away.

Anyhow, I should also be working, but have just finished reading V for Vendetta. It was quite enjoyable. But I guess I’ll be staying up late to finish my ‘homework’ for tomorrow. I had forgotten what it was like to feel this way.

I will also add an exciting image of Jen looking at a Stereoscopic image.

Visitors/ Lundbreck Falls/ Working in the Studio

So yesterday my mother stopped by as she was going through town, and took us out for lunch.  Today, Latifa’s family came to visit.  We went for lunch with them, and then went to Lundbreck Falls.  I enjoyed meeting her family and the afternoon we spent with them.

Latifa and her father cooling their feet in the river

Lundbreck Falls is a beautiful place.  I have spent quite a bit of time there, with my family as a child and even as recently as a couple of years ago.  The Crowsnest is a great place to fish, and so my father and I have come here to fish a few times.  The falls are much busier than I remember ever having seen them though, but that might be because it’s the last long weekend of the summer.

Latifa drawing…

As for working, we’ve been working on a lot of things, all revolving around the idea of “Perception.”  Right now, it’s mostly just playing around with a lot of things…. Latifa has been working on a humongous drawing and making noises to use for a sound installation.  I’ve been playing around with some photos and some video stuff I’ve been taking with my camera.  I’ve also been doing quite a bit of research on stereoscopic and anaglyphic 3D images and so we’ve been doing a lot of looking at things through pieces of colored acetate.  That is what I should have up here for images… maybe I’ll get Latifa to pose later.  Anyway, here’s a short video of Latifa collecting sound.

We are having a good adventure, but honestly, life seems just as busy as it is at home.

Day One – Jen

I am so tired.

Today was a bit of a crazy day, but that might have been compounded by not sleeping well last night (in anticipation of today), “Fresh Mountain Air” as Latifa says, and all the excitement and stress of meeting new people, making sure we were in the right places, etc, etc. etc.  Did I mention I didn’t sleep well last night?

Anyway, onto the good stuff.  As I said, today was a crazy day.  I met Latifa when she picked me up this morning, at my house, and after a quick breakfast stop at Timmie’s, we were on our way!  One wrong turn and two hours later, we met Mike at the Art Gallery in Frank, in the Crowsnest Pass.  Latifa and I had gone in just to kill time and check out the gallery, and met up with Mike in the parking lot, and he said, “Oh, you must have met Krisztina, then?” It had never even occurred to me to introduce myself, we had mostly just gone in to kill time.  It seems that, in my five years in Calgary, (and Montreal before that), I have forgotten the quirks of small town life.  It won’t be long before people in the Pass know who we are, and try as we might, we’ll only manage to remember a few.

After we got all moved in, we took a walk through downtown Blairmore, and then Mike took us for a bit of a driving tour of four of the five towns that make up the Pass.  We are staying in the Gushul Studio and Writer’s Cottage, so Blairmore is our home base.  Not far down the road in either direction are the four other towns: Coleman, Frank, Bellevue, and the Hillcrest Mines.  And not much farther away is Lundbreck, home of the waterfall of many of my childhood memories.  I had forgotten exactly how much rock there is from the Frank Slide…. If you look at the map, you can see the swish of grey, the field of rubble.  And each of those stones are huge.

After getting some groceries and making some dinner at Latifa’s, I decided to take the night to relax and get used to my surroundings.  I made a nice cup of tea and talked to Brad on Skype. I think now, I’m maybe going to read one of the books I brought with me…. a “Bargain Bin Special” called “Downtown Owl,” (Chuck Klosterman) which I thought might be appropriate for the occasion.  The book is about Owl, a small town in North Dakota, and the strange quirks small towns seem to have.  It really reminds me of home.

Anyway, all is good, just settling in! Stay tuned!

(Original post is on my main blog, at jenniferakkermans.com)